Lovely Momma

Life has been moving really fast lately. Too fast actually, and a lot has been changing. Most of the change is good, but even when things change for the better, it isn't easy. Change is well, odd. Bryce has been super busy with school and work, but he graduates in two weeks!!! Can I get a hallelujah?! LJ is growing up so fast, and sometimes I feel like I can barely keep up with that kid! He brings so much joy to our lives. Its a funny thing how having a baby can force you to grow up so fast. He makes us see the things and people that really matter in life and the things/people that don't have a place in your life anymore. Being young parents is tough especially when your the only one of your group of friends that have a baby. At first it isn't much of a challenge, in that, the baby is fun to have around and everyone wants a piece of your kid. Plus, babies are easy to take out. Then your baby isn't so much a baby anymore and you really start to see how much your life has...

Lately I've been feeling overwhelmed and kind of down. We have had a whole lot going on lately with moving and a lot of good changes, however I found myself in a funk. So much in a funk, that I literally had a melt down the other day. Life had caught up to me and I was overwhelmed in every aspect.  So, I've been doing a lot of thinking and praying lately. I realized I've lost who I am. I have begun to define myself as a mother and a wife but have completely neglected to focus on myself, my wants and my desires. Although I love being married and I love being a momma to LJ, I realized I rarely make time to do anything just for me, and when I do I usually feel guilty for leaving LJ or I feel selfish. Not making myself and the things that I enjoy doing apart from my family a priority have left me feeling very lost and disconnected from knowing who I am. So, after a great conversation with a good friend, I realized I need to figure out who I am. What makes me happy? Of course...

"Just think of all you have to be thankful for." This is what Bryce told me as I was crying my eyes out. He was right, I knew he was, and I had let my selfish desires and emotions get the best of me. Why was I so upset when I had the the most caring and  selfless husband telling me everything is okay and the most precious baby boy looking at me wondering what the heck happened to his mom that usually has it all together. Life happened. Being young and married is difficult, and adding a baby and everything else on top of that makes life stressful and not any easier. That morning it seemed everything hit me at once and I was blaming myself for everything little thing. I had just got off the phone with financial aid and they dropped the bomb of how much money we now owe back because of student loans. On top of that, the realization that we were still living in Bryce's dad's house longer than we intended and everything else in my life that stressed me out finally broke...

So, its been way too long since my last post! Holy cow its been like a month. But oh well! I'm going to try a lot harder to keep up more often and put up more recipes. Anyways, this month has been a roller coaster! LJ is getting SO big and into everything, I find myself sitting down very rarely! Bryce and I are currently house hunting which is very stressful and emotional, but we are both incredibly excited that the Lord has blessed to be in the position to even buy a home! For me, the faster we buy a home the better! It has been the biggest blessing that Bryce's dad has let us live at his house while we saved money, but it is definitely time for us to get own place. I will be sad when we move because we brought our baby home here, but way more excited to have our very own place to call HOME:) Here are a few things we did this month: Bryce and I went a few dates. We've been trying to get more creative of how we spend alone time together so we've been hi...

Sometimes life is just crazy. Actually all the time life is crazy. Sometimes crazy is good, and sometimes crazy is stressful. Lately I've been feeling stressed. I think the reality of parenthood has really hit me and Bryce. Everything changes when a little person enters your life. In my opinion for the better, but that doesn't mean life is easier by any means.  Bryce and I are the first of our families to have a kid and the first of our best friends to have a kid, so sometimes we feel very alone. I mean we have a each other, and I'm so thankful for our marriage and how strong we are together, however sometimes it would be nice to have people that really understand how it is to be a young parent. You don't know what its like to have a baby until you have one, and I think even when you first have one it takes time for it to really settle in. I mean, when LJ was only a couple months, he was really easy to take everywhere with us. Now that he almost 8 months, he is definit...